I'm the type of person who will feel absolutely guilty and sad for simply being mad at a loved one who has either wronged me or another loved one. Oh, how do these emotions work?  I'm allowed to be angry and upset right but why is it always followed by sorrow? and regret? and nothing but emptiness.

Is it disappointment maybe? That those who I hold dear to me are wronging themselves and hurting me in the process. That their pain translates into my pain. That their misguidance is my pain. That their lack of empathy or concern for others affects me. That their actions and words both upset me and sadden me. Destroy me.

And I don't think it has anything to do with expectations. Expectations are over rated and I rarely ever expect anything from anyone but respect.

But yeah I'm really annoyed at this shitty personality trait of mine. I don't think its normal. And it burdens me a lot. Imagine getting into a fight with someone or have someone say shitty things and then later having conflicting thoughts with yourself because of what you said in defense (not to say you said equally as shitty things but the mere fact you know their upset now too).

One of those your sadness floats side by side with mine,
your pain is my pain
kinda things