Many people don't know this but for almost 2 years, I had a personal tumblr account that was restricted where I wrote about a whole bunch of things. I've owned many blogs where eventually i just stop posting when i get bored of it or end up simply deleting it. Surprising i hadn't deleted that one and since i was actually looking through it right now, all 156 posts, i don't think i will. Looking back at all those posts and reading them and distinctly remembering those events and all those emotions is really weird and amazing at the same time.  Really refreshing too.

Here's a little something from that blog lol enjoy.I have no idea what i was saying but i loved that book and i love john green.

In John Green's, Looking for Alaska, the Great Perhaps I believe will taunt me just as much as it taunted Miles the months before enrolling in Culver Creek and falling head over heels for a female he barely even knew. Not to say I plan to enroll in a nearby boarding school and go gay but the philosophy behind it. It stares directly in the eyes of all the what ifs that are thrown around in common though because too many people are afraid. Afraid of something, everything and nothing. I don't want to be afraid nor do i want to go through what miles did. But after having finished reading the book, just as i suspecting Miles and Colonel and even Takumi all face one last Great Perhaps. Then it dawned on me, the reason why the Great Perhaps and what ifs have a stare off. Its because whether or not they seem to be enemies at first, they're essentially the same thing. Both fighting the same thing, but on different sides. And that throughout the spam of your life, you will face countless what ifs and great perhaps because whether or not we notice right then and there, the thoughts that follow after are always going to conflict with the thoughts you thought prior. Which sucks.

Clearly I know nothing and this is me trying to make something out of nothing, but for now this makes sense. I loved that book and the thoughts i had after having finished it regardless if they made me seem a little crazy.

Written on January 15 2012 at 1:36PM
I shall try harder.